Yesterday, Today & …


Yesterday, Today & …


by Ken Pullen


Wednesday, August 27th, 2014


If my sister were alive she would have been 56 years old today. But she died on December 8th, 2003 at the age of 45. The morning I got the news the phone rang and the voice on the other end told me immediately this was a “bad news” phone call.

My sister was obese, smoked, and did not eat well at all, but I still was not prepared for that telephone call.

Few things actually stun me, or in that very overused word in our culture “shock” me, but when I received that call I was stunned. A feeling of numbness.

At the loss. I would never make her laugh again. Never sit at a table and share a meal. Never hear her biting humor. She was gone.

In 2003 I was also gone. Gone from God, gone from Yeshua, Jesus the Lord and Messiah. Gone from the Holy Spirit and the Scriptures. Gone from the Truth and the Life. Gone from Real Life and living lost, blind, and in delusion along with the majority. My sister also was gone in these most important parts of life here which provide, renew, and lead to eternal life.

My sadness at the time was at my loss of my sister, who was my best friend in my immediate family. For most of my life I had a very difficult and tumultuous relationship with my earthly father and mother. In the final few years of my mother’s life she and I had developed a close and good relationship. We ended well. My mother died in March of 1997 and the great difference between my mother and my sister was my mother was a believer — my sister was not. To the best of my knowledge.

My sister never would allow the subject of salvation, God, the Bible, Jesus, and being a person of faith in Them or a person not in faith of Them. She avoided the subject at all costs. Lived in the moment. Was a terribly unhappy person who only wanted to live to have fun — if she could find it, according to her definition, and the world’s definition.

I do not know if my sister believed in God.

Or that Jesus was and is God-man come to earth to live, die, and be risen on the third day as Lord of lords, King of kings, the Messiah and Saviour of everyone who will hear, come, follow, and believe upon Him and live their lives with Him as Lord of their lives.

There was zero evidence of her believing anything about God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit, or the Word of God, the Holy Bible.



Glass Wing Butterfly


My sadness in December of 2003 was that my sister would only live in my memory and I would never see her, or hear her physically again. At the time I did not give thought to the place and final position of her spirit and soul. I was merely selfish and missed her.

Now, for the past 4 years, as August 27th draws near I think of her in a different light. While I do think of good memories; I see her smile; Her fat cheeks and her innocence still shining in her eyes while in her 40’s —  I also knew she had tasted of and sinned greatly in the world for many years.

Now, for the past 4 years my sadness has changed in priority and perspective.

I see how fleeting life and time is. How very fast time whirls along while the majority sit idly in darkness and in the vacuum of lies and distractions and delusions.

Everyone knows. Everyone knows there is a God. Even the atheists know that in the very core of their marrow. They just have chosen of their own will, not through evidence of creation, not through the living Word of God open and able to be revealed to them if they so choose that path instead of the wide and crooked one they have chosen. Atheism is arrogance and replacing the One True Living God — with yourself.

While no one has ever had the ability to create gravity, time, light, speed, water, air, the sun, the moon, the stars — the smile of a young girl surprised, or the fineness and jewel-like wings of a butterfly. Nor can any man or woman create the consciousness, the awareness within each person who has ever lived, is living, and will yet live.

Most of the people who have ever lived, are living, or will yet live will not be saved and experience eternal life in heaven with God and Jesus the Lord.

The majority go through this gift of life, this amazing, unique, incomprehensible in its depth and complexities and wonderfullness gift of life without ever turning to God, without ever hearing His call to them, and they may appear alive and vibrant and animated — but they are dead in darkness.

Then, when they die? Oh such sadness! Oh such sadness! Oh such sadness!

When we believe and thus KNOW.


“Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat: Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.”

Jesus the Lord speaking – Matthew 7:13-14 – King James Version

“Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.”

Psalm 51:10 – King James Version

“If I regard iniquity in my heart, the Lord will not hear me.”

Psalm 66:18

While on August 27th, and many other days throughout the year I am sad that my younger sister, who waited, and wasted, and waited longer and more, and who ignored, scoffed, and closed her heart, closed her ears, closed her eyes to the calling of the Lord our God and to the best of my knowledge she died lost and unsaved in darkness, and her eternity is set, and that makes me sad — I am thankful each day that while I had yet this flesh, blood, and bone I turned from my life of sin, and I heard the Lord, and I answered His calling! I give thanks unto the Lord our God each day for saving a sinner as me.

Too many deny. Too many follow the lies. Too many turn from God. Too many have hard hearts and walk in darkness while giving the appearance of life. Too many are going to have a sorrowful eternity more than my sorrow at the loss of my lost sister — for, I, by the grace, mercy, and forgiveness of Yeshua, Jesus the Lord and Messiah, by his shed blood and resurrection, and m y belief upon Him as Saviour, Lord, and Risen Son of God have the hope of eternal life with Him, and with the heavenly Father, and the heavenly hosts!

If as you read this you are a true believer? Do not be ashamed of the “Good News” of Jesus our Lord. Do not be shy, do not hesitate, do not put off until tomorrow what can be done today, for none are guaranteed or know tomorrow, many have no tomorrow…

so become well equipped in the Word of God. Have trust in the Lord and the Holy Spirit to give you what to speak and to know opportunity — and take that opportunity! Seize that time, now, for it is all we have! To tell of the wonders, the love, the life contained in the Holy Bible and in the Truth, and the Life, and in God. Let those you love and know, let those you are related to, let those you work with, let all who are walking in darkness know of the Light and the Truth!

Will you save people?

No, Jesus is the only one Who saves.

Will you lead many people to Jesus the Lord?

Do not care about numbers — take care of the quality of the Word of God within you, and trust in the Holy Spirit, and if by example, by leading, by instructing only one soul over a span of 20 years heeds the call of God and Jesus that little seed you planted for the Lord, and He nurtured, gardened, and tended to which grew and bore fruit is worth all the treasure in the world, all the accolades and acclaim this world could muster up and bestow upon you!

Lose your self.

Find the way to the Lord.

Take up the mantle to lead, to try to lead others to the Lord our God and His Son, Jesus the Messiah!

We cannot alter yesterday nor should we reside there.

We have today.

And on December 8th, 2003 my lost sister who wandered in darkness had no tomorrow, no other opportunity to heed and answer the call of the Lord our God. There was no “I’ll do something about my salvation tomorrow…” There was no tomorrow, yesterday, with only today…

Here for a fleeting time

One day

Then all is gone

along with life in death no opportunity

Yesterday people always desire to change

Today they ignore, wasting

in haste

Placing everything they have on a tomorrow

which never comes…


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